Razman??

Ok, you dont know who he is but...i have a small crush on him, he's my classmate..oh, i got nervous just by thinking about him. i have a crush on him but it isn't love or anything...huh! i have a picture with him with me, yay! but it was me just smiling at the camera but him staring at his work. which is a bit weird because he asked me whether i have a boyfriend and i thought he asked me and my friend which turns out that she didnt hear him. so it was just me talking to him. he had once gave me a flying kiss while my classmates was staring at the teacher. god, i like him. please make it into a crush. haha..

Anyway, my dream started like this.......................

so i was standing in front of a few restaurant and i was in between two shops. but i leaned towards the other one. i chose to buy nasi goreng. and there's a man there, cooking the fried rice right infront of me. i bought it and while waiting, my friends Balqis and Miera decided to go and buy the food somewhere else. i didnt mind but suddenly Razman and one of his friends was there. Miera talked to him (as always, she's the kind that ... you know *rolling eyes*) so i ignored. I'm the girl that avoided boys until they talked to me. the kind that boys usually see as someone that stops them from being close to a girl they like. the nottie. so she batted her eyes a bit at him before walking away to another shop. Razman stood next to me and i ignored him (as always) and as the man (who turns out to be a good friend) gave me my food.

'Hey,' i nods at him and turns around. i was about to walk away when he place his hand on my shoulder and turns me around in a hard but at hte same time slowly. it felt like he wanted me to turn but i can still push him away.

'Knape?' i asked him. i acted like i didnt care he just put his hand on my shoulder but he seems shocked that he just did that. he didnt know what to say to me i guess.

'Jomla mkn dgn kitorg,' he offered but i was shocked and it might have shown on my face because he quickly added 'ko boleh la makan dgn safwan. (he's someone that the classmates just gossipped with me) tak nak ke makan dgn safwan?' he continue to smile in the most ways that i GERAM kt die. he turns to see his friends that turns out to be sitting near us and is hearing what he just said about safwan (surprise surprise he's there) that's just the way he acted around me so i just rolled my eyes and walked away.i could feel that he's a bit frustrated that i didnt answer. But i ignored it and went to Miera and Balqis which suddenly made me so ngantuk.

'Razman ajak makan sekali,' i told them in a nonchalant way. they nodded and i gave a big yawn. suddenly , the cook that was my friend offered me a place to sleep. there is a room there, that the workers sit or hang around before they got to work.

what happen next is that i didnt see but know what happen. the cook said to Razman and his friends if they want to see something. Turns out, he was looking for me and the cook realised it. 

'Come on,' he egged him but his friend was the first to come. he quickly followed but he wanted his friend to not see it but he was too late. the cook opened the door a bit to a room and his friend got a peek of what's inside. turns out, his friend is prof (a friend who looks just like a professor) my classmate to. prof turns and smile at him and he walks away.

in the room, i woke up when the door opened slowly, i was on the bed, and a friend of mine (works at the restaurant) is sleeping on the floor next to me. there's a pair of pants that was laying down on the floor and on instinct, i looked at my pants. they were there, thank god, my friend was wearing his pants to which was weird because he wasnt wearing any shirt but there are not any shirt on the floor. then i saw prof looking at me through the door. but before i can say anything, i realise that razman was looking at me to. he had this betrayed look on his face which made me feel that i need to explain to him. 

i quickly tried to catch up to him but then i realise, there's no need. i mean, who am i to him. i dont need to explain to him. so i fixed my shirt and walk out. turned to my friends and asked if their food is done. we were just about to walk out the restaurant when i still feel the need to explain to razman. i could feel him trying not to talk to me or even look at me but he's still wanted me to tell me what happen. he was sitting with his back to me but there was a gap between him and his friends. it was weird because he was sitting with them at first. 

i took a detour as we walk out to explain to him. he was nervous to hear my explanation and i was nervous to give an explanition.....heeee...

as i stood there i decided the words that will work well..then prof said something about me in the room and i explain it to him, in a way, i was explaining it to both of them. prof made a face that he didnt buy it then i turn to Razman and sat down. i was hugging the chair and explain it to him. he just nods his head like he didnt believe it but he was listening intently at my words and thinking if it was real. i continue until i feel that it was no use. so i stood up and my friends was waiting there for me, they started eating already and i joined. so i guess that i was eating with him, just by the distance of two chair. and he decided that it was real and nothing happen in the room but before he could say anything..

I WOKE UP!

what to do..but at least it wasn't exciting or anything. he's like a crush...

hope to see him again=)  

right now, i'm over him, we just chatted o facebook and he insulted me. so this is a reminder for myself, he's an asshole. don't ever like him ! remember all the things he did. remember that!